Trust & Patience

Trust....trust that everything is working out the way is supposed to. Trust that everything is as it should be for the desired outcome. Trust.

How do you trust when all the immediate signs don't appear to support what you think you know? How do you trust that everything is working out the way its supposed to when all the outward signs say something different? How do you let go of the doubt and confusion and just trust?

Simple. Faith.

Ok, the simple answer is faith, but having the faith sometimes is not so simple! As I've mentioned before, I get "messages". But sometimes I just "know" things. Its just a knowing. I don't know how I know, but I know that I know that I know. I guess you can say that I have faith in it.

But sometimes, even having that knowing...knowing with all my heart and soul...sometimes the outward signs get to me and my ego takes over and starts telling me something different and I begin to doubt....I doubt myself, I doubt my intuition, I doubt my knowing....I just doubt.

Right now I'm in the middle of one of my ego battles. My ego tells me that maybe I'm wrong about this....maybe it will never happen. My ego tells me that maybe my knowing wasn't really knowing - maybe it was only wishful thinking. Even though for months I've been "told" time and time again that everything is going to work out. But then what happens? I come home today and ask for guidance...I ask for answers...and what do I get? I get...."Everything is how it needs to be right now. Look past the illusion, and see underlying order." And then..."We angels are opening up the hearts of everyone involved. Conflicts are now being resolved." But wait, there's more...."Trust and follow your renewed passion in your love life."

Ask a question and get an answer! Sometimes it is just that simple. Have faith. All along, I've known there is a reason why everything is playing out the way it is....it still is. But we live in a society that thrives on instant gratification....is patience a virtue anymore or are patient people seen as weak? Are they seen as just sitting back and waiting for someone else to make a move?

I once had a friend tell me that she thought I was a "doormat" because I didn't demand immediate action the way that she would have. I tried to explain that I understood why I had to wait...I tried to explain why I was being patient, but she couldn't or wouldn't understand because she would have never "put up with that." Was I being patient or being a doormat? She still thinks I'm being a doormat and being taken advantage of because while my ex-husband is out of town I go by the house and go through the mail for him, pay some bills and help him out any way that I can. According to her, since we aren't marriend, I "shouldn't" be doing these things for him any more - he needs to learn how to take care of things when he's out of town. We were married for 26 years, we are still good friends and I know he would do the same for me....I don't see that as being taken advantage of, I see it as helping out someone I care about. But because she would never do anything like that for an ex, apparently I shouldn't either.

So, today I am being asked to keep my faith and trust that everything is working out the way its supposed to. Basically, I'm being told to be patient....just a little bit longer. I guess I'm wondering - how long do I wait? How long can my patience hold out? I am a very patient person and will wait as long as I need to if I believe in something...but that doubt keeps coming to mind - what if I remain patient and wait longer and then it never happens? See, there's that doubt creeping in again!!

I know me...I will have the faith and the patience to wait, because I know that I know that I know, in my heart of hearts that it will all work out and be worth every moment!

Namaste,
Carol